SILENCE !

It is 02:07am & I'm wide awake. I can't sing the song of Rachel green - The Morning is Here ..The Morning is Here... Sunshine is Here. It's not the morning – rather a deep night. The world has settled down, the human beings have calmed themselves for a few hours, and of course the nature is running its course. I am still awake; not sometimes; unusually usual. I lose grip on the equilibrium of my life and I get a sleepless night here and there.

An unfinished poem, an unfinished novel or an unfinished symphony can never have the aesthetic status of completed works of music, art or literature.

The same applies to individual human life. A human life cannot attain its full meaning until it is complete. Everything seeks purpose and meaning.

An expression (may through email/SMS/post card..) is always complemented by an expression (if reciprocated).

But - SILENCE ?  A Call/Conversation ended up with bad note? - actually kills from inside.

Perhaps that's why I am awake. I am so scared to fall asleep. So scared to really let me take where it will.  

"If you don't do this, I'll not give you candy anymore". And there it is. It is pure, it is simple, and it is being enacted right before me. The laws that govern the "little"; not the “grownups”.


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So far, I have been on one end of the spectrum - not being the quiet listener but the one with the lump in the throat.

NOW - I want to listen. I'ld love to listen. Believe me, you won't be able to connect with someone (even if you spend day and night with them) the way you do in that one moment of expression/confession, one moment with trembling lips and wet eyes — in that one moment of trust.

And it is almost always about that ONE moment… if it passes, it would not come back. If you are distracted, you wouldn’t hear it again. Sometimes, just missing that one moment keeps us at a distance from the person we love for the rest of our lives.
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Life should move on !

Was all alone the entire day, waiting for an intervention. I knew I
won't have anyone to help me to get through; but it was hard to believe.

Yes - you rightly said, life should move on. Why to wake up crying in
the midnight.. why to wait for a call.. why to blame the fate or
OTHERS.

You suggested to start a new habit to get engaged & divert the
attention. Yes, I attempted today. To be able to move on, I started to
learn to forgive & forget not only the person (or people) but also to
the situations.

I know this turbulence will come to an end; and if not, then this is
not the end of my life.

'Dream' - it is a magical memory that unites fantasy and reality; why
can't a LIFE be like a dream?