Perspectives !

"Who Am I?" A confused life. Yes - ur mistake is my life & when u fixed; I'm lost, yes, I'm.			:-(
:-)	"Who Am I?" An enlightened life. Yes - my mistake is my life & when u slipped up; I survived.
'Am I mad?' Don’t laugh. Yes, I am. You know why? I'm not in life, not in death. Hanging, waiting for someone to pull up or push me down. I am mad for sure.			:-(
:-)	'Am I mad?' Don’t laugh. Yes, I am. You know why? Because, I must be. Otherwise u wouldn’t hv been part of my life.   Am in life, not in death. Swinging.. Oscillating.. & no desire to come to rest. I am mad for sure.
"R u a joker?" -  shot another. Yes – I am. With the mask to make u laugh, when ur eyes r full. I may look like a mocking face; but better than thousand clicks. One person's craziness is another person's reality. The laughing faces around me hides the unwanted sympathy, the unheard cry, the unsaid words.			:-(
:-)	"U R funny!" -  shot another. Yes – I am. May be its ur ability to look at everything close up. It's not just that u r an optimist; I’ve got both looks & loveliness; dear. My plastic surgeon said, u got to go with a smile. The tragic or the humorous is a matter of perspective. So, take off the mask & start giggling…
"Hey, u just deleted me" No one noticed except me. May be it’s the beginning or... it’s just my vision fading. Someone asked, how’s life in the ‘recycle bin'? ‘Nice’, I said. I don't need the darkness to dream, I don't need the light to ride. It’s an air tight box - I can sleep undisturbed. Forever …			:-(
:-)	Har khel mein hum ho na ho Gardis mein taare rahenge sada, Bhoologe tum bhoolenge woh Par hum tumhare rahenge sada. Rahenge yahin apne nisan, Iss ke sewa jaana kahan.	:-)

Desperate attempt ?

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From: chitaranjan behera <behera.chitaranjan@gmail.com>

Date: Fri, Mar 30, 2012 at 7:56 PM
To: abc <abc@gmail.com>

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I lived up with a feeling - "for me I know she is always with me and for her I know I am always with her".

I used to think, ‘I'll have somebody with me & shall share my laughter with somebody, and share my tears with somebody, wanted to be close to somebody'.

So many things have happened & keep on happening...

But why am I still holding on to tht small piece of hope that I'll wake up one day and see somebody around.

My heart is frozen and mind is blocked ...Am I just a shallow cow? No - now i feel its enogh - Enough is enough !

I just want to be happy without anybody. I'm so dejected and need to see that i never get into any type of relationship and I know I deserve better treatment.

Honestly I don't have any nagging fears that break up might be the wrong thing to do.

How many regrets you will have with me?

At least u'll be happy - and i'll be happy seeing u happy.

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From: abc <abc@gmail.com>
Date: Fri, Mar 30, 2012 at 9:44 PM
To: chitaranjan behera <behera.chitaranjan@gmail.com>

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mera dil bhari ho ra hai.... simply cant say anything...

I wish i had power to explain myself tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

I dnt kno wat I feel. I dnt kno wats in my mind. I wish I cud give wat u want in lieu

 

I CAN'T understand myself & may expect u 2 to do.

if I cud, I cud may b hv explained it to you.

I can not c u trying & failing lyk this..... i kno u try... i kno u do

All ur messages reach me well...

I dnt kno why there is heaven & there is hell...

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