Desperate attempt ?

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

From: chitaranjan behera <behera.chitaranjan@gmail.com>

Date: Fri, Mar 30, 2012 at 7:56 PM
To: abc <abc@gmail.com>

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I lived up with a feeling - "for me I know she is always with me and for her I know I am always with her".

I used to think, ‘I'll have somebody with me & shall share my laughter with somebody, and share my tears with somebody, wanted to be close to somebody'.

So many things have happened & keep on happening...

But why am I still holding on to tht small piece of hope that I'll wake up one day and see somebody around.

My heart is frozen and mind is blocked ...Am I just a shallow cow? No - now i feel its enogh - Enough is enough !

I just want to be happy without anybody. I'm so dejected and need to see that i never get into any type of relationship and I know I deserve better treatment.

Honestly I don't have any nagging fears that break up might be the wrong thing to do.

How many regrets you will have with me?

At least u'll be happy - and i'll be happy seeing u happy.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
From: abc <abc@gmail.com>
Date: Fri, Mar 30, 2012 at 9:44 PM
To: chitaranjan behera <behera.chitaranjan@gmail.com>

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

mera dil bhari ho ra hai.... simply cant say anything...

I wish i had power to explain myself tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

I dnt kno wat I feel. I dnt kno wats in my mind. I wish I cud give wat u want in lieu

 

I CAN'T understand myself & may expect u 2 to do.

if I cud, I cud may b hv explained it to you.

I can not c u trying & failing lyk this..... i kno u try... i kno u do

All ur messages reach me well...

I dnt kno why there is heaven & there is hell...

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------